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The Deathly Hallows.




I don’t do drama and your not going to manipulate situations or manipulate me. The fact that there were games from both sides that placed me in the crosshairs and there were issues in terms of payment this week. I don’t care if there was a pretty box wrapped in a bow. I’ve been asked to do something cool and it’s a new adventure and I’m having fun with it.


But I remeber why I walked away in the first place and anything that threatens my mental health means that I can and will bail easily on this bullshit agian. When there are issues on both sides and I’m starting to see who was manipulating situations on both sides and trying to draw me into something I knew absolutely nothing about is a fucking piss off. If and when it ever affects my well being or my ability to take care of my current responsibilities at home and elsewhere. I will be done again.


This is supposed to be fun. I shouldn’t be angry. I shouldn’t have a bad taste in my mouth. But people tend to show true colours when they have something to use you for.  That being said. I’m actually surprised that I currently have low expectations with the side that I am now forced to have chosen a side because of others manipulating drama. 


I walked away for a reason. To be told I’m lying  over something I didn’t even get a chance to speak on in front of 5 witnesses means someone was looking for a fight. Wrong. Fight or flight response here. It’s flight. 


I have bigger issues to deal with than immature man and women children who want to be pathetic losers. I like doing this and it started as fun to allow me to express myself while I escorted one of the people in my life to something he enjoys when we can afford it.


However, it can just as easily turn into a happy fucking memory and forgotten.

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