Waging Heavy Peace.

I am at peace, there is a something that helps every trip back to Windsor. I’m glad that I was able to do that trip with two people I care about deeply and I hope that the next trip it will possibly be someone else, but we shall see. But for now I am at peace, I am content and I am looking positively to the next step.

This is where I found the warrior inside, and this is where I decided to stop letting the warrior mentality define the rest of my life. I can find solace and peace here. This is where I truly grew up and became a man, it’s too bad it was such a rollercoaster.

Windsor was the first place I ever felt comfortable in my own skin.

And it’s nice to still be known, sometimes Windsor famous isn’t a bad thing.

It’s nice to know I still have good freinds and options in Windsor and going back in costume was fun as hell. I know that I’m enjoying my life and that nothing can stop me and my crew from having a good time. Happy birthday brother, I hope you enjoyed you’re 40th on Saturday…

This is the way.

Comments

Father and Son.

I dont know the next step. I don't claim to. I just know I'm working to rebuild a relationship that has been fractured for many years. That includes both of you. I am here. I will always be here, I have always been here that will never change This weekend was epic and it felt right. I don't know what will happen but i do know that I am at peace with being civil and polite with your mom. It was nice to have a little adventure as a family. It felt right. It what was missing in our lives. Thank you.

The Laugh Track.

I want you in my life. Don't ever fucking confuse that for needing you in my life. Those two things are mutually exclusive to each other. I'm fine with my life and it's not my freind's and my social life that I'm jealous of. We both made our choices. My life has always been an insane carnival. You were merely an extended chapter. But if you think I'm going to sit at home being sad and depressed and shutting down because your not in my life. Your delusional. Then agian we already know this. If my life is going to be a sad comedy then I'll make it a metal massacre. I'm not sitting around waiting for anyone. The least of all you. I sacrificed enough time on the altar of what might have been. I'm just enjoying the time that we have left. This way if it go out, it's on my own terms. I always told you that my funeral pyre will be a blaze of glory.. I just never told you when. Now I'm gonna live and have adventures. Remain jealous. You know how ...

The Villian

I've never gave a rats ass about being the bad guy. But I have cared about being a fairweather freind and how I reflect on being a role model to my son. I will walk away from any bad actors or bad relationships that endanger the relationship I am slowly attempting to rebuild. I know I can be a prick. But when you hurt someone I care about, I do not trust you that you may affect those I care about. I burn bridges with gasoline while I'm standing upon them. It wont be the first multiple decade freindship ive demolished, it won't be the last. Im starting to reevaluate a lot of drinking buddies agian to see who is actually something and who I just party with. If I'm obviously moving in a direction thats going to have me ghosting someone whose been around for a minute, so be it. It wont even be the first one this year. I dont look back. And I dont care, if I exclude you from my life, thats an ending that's where its done. I am making choices for my future and its pret...

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