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No Regrets.



I don’t regret a damn thing I’ve done with my life. Not the battles I’ve fought, not the war I fought for all the right reasons. Not the freinds I’ve lost along the way. Not everyone is strong enough for this ride. I have good people in my life and I am living for my adventures. I don’t look back and I just wish the one person that should be by side at baseball games and meeting sports Hero’s and other interesting things like concerts in other provinces was by mine and my inner circles side.


That’s a wound that has been taken away. And it sucks. But it happened. Those years are never coming back. But one day maybe we can have them again on our own terms and not dictated by a third party who only has her own selfish interests at play. Oops what was that, is it possibly time for me to look into my own selfish interests? I love you Son, I always will but the truth is the estrangement isn’t going to change anytime soon until you’re told the truth. But one day all these adventures will be with you as a part of. 


Till then I’m done being angry, I’m done holding onto a illusionary past that was never truly real, our moments were real kid, but not the imaginary world you’re fucking mother did and still does live in.  Meanwhile I’ve lived my nightmares, now I’m going to Live my dreams. I suffered the dreaded poison that was patience and hope long enough. 


I get to have an interesting life thru sheer force of will. I have good people in my life and my life doesn’t suck. Despite your best efforts. I can pretend you don’t exist for a moment longer.


Don’t bother calling tonight, I’m still not answering. I have forgiven, I will never forget. You destroyed my life. I rebuilt it.  

For that I am victory. There’s nothing left for you to take away. 


I win. 

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