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Death Walking Terror



I break rules, I’m a rule breaker. This is how I live my life. I’m not real big on conformity. If you had my life why would you see any reason to colour within the lines and be a peaceful

Member of society? I have fun and do stuff. I’ve never had what one would consider a normal life, why in the hell would I want to start one now?

I’m not real big on conformity, my life thrives on chaos, even in a time I have some form of peace in my life, I still need my moments like these heavy metal shows I’m constantly at to remind me that at my core I’m still me, and to release some of the aggro and aggression o bottle up to keep those around me and those I care about safe. 

Doing things on my own terms rather than changing to trying to be the person someone else wanted is so much easier than changing to fit into a mold that I thought was wanted 25 years ago.  That road only lead to chaos and pain anyways. I’m so much better being me, and letting peace lead me than chasing it. 

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