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Camp: Day Two


"Daddy wake Up it's time to go to camp!!!" 7 am this morning.... what a great kid, actually went to bed and slept a whole night for me too.. he's been really well behaved for the counsellors and for me all day yesterday so i don't see what other people are seeing or I'm just choosing to ignore it... but given i'm the one trained in behaviors i doubt that highly. I find it really hard every morning letting him go independently into the world without me, i wonder if she feels this way every time he goes to school or to my house, it's one thing to send him home with mom at least I know he's somewhat safe in her care, but to send him into the great white world all by his lonesome.... really hard.. i guess every parent must go thru this when they have kids, i'm just noticing it now because it's the first time when we have time together that he's doing something without me. it's a diffrent feeling.

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