Psychological War

So anyways, the good and the bad is all out their laid bare for everyone to see, at least some of the more positive things i am wanting to happen are happening. I can see a lot of nonsense around me and I can see when someone is trying to direct messages to me, that's ok, I'm smart enough to direct them back and have some meaning to them, i.e. don't come round here No more, at least i know what I'm feeling most of the time, because it's anger and annoyance, I don't need to compete with a woman whose just a little girl whose two years older than me but more immature than my 6 year old. I live my life as who i am and provide for who I need to and that's it. there's no point in playing a game of one upmanship because you'll always have had the car and the house and everything before me... but of course i had the happiness and I don't live in a world full of misery by my own choosing, At least i can say i stood on my own two feet and never backed down from you or anyone and did what i wanted to in my life and that's all that matters.

Current Mood: Annoyance.
Don't hold to anger, hurt or pain. They steal your energy and keep you from love.

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Fall Of Cybertron III: Where’s Poochie.

It is very easy for me to fade away and just get bored of other people and politics when games are played. I’m not even fucking blinking when someone else who I’ve done things for, constantly for months with no rewards suddenly forgets I exist. That’s real easy for me to fucking deal with. Con politics, games, asshole people that don’t pay there Fuckin promises from day one? Don’t call my number. I stepped away from this shit once on my own. I have no fucking problem doing it again. I feel used and betrayed, but for me it was a Tuesday. I suspect jealousy and politics but I also know when to stick a fork in something when it’s done. I’ve got no interest being around anyone that doesn’t want me involved in there little cliques. I mean this thing was fun but from day one it was political. I don’t need stress and drama in my life. I can hang up my Wizard robe and move the fuck on. I did a great job of it on my own anyways. I don’t look amateur hour like the rest of them. And I no longer

Fuel Injected Suicide Machine.

Pissing me off is never a good fucking option. I have a life and I don’t need to make fucking sacrifices for anyone if I choose not to. I’m getting real fed up with simply being expected to do and arrange things so someone else can have a fucking escape. This is starting to become a fucking pattern in my life. Some I choose to do for, but others, when I’m starting to notice a fucking pattern? I’m gone. I will always be gone. The fact I have yet to step foot in England when I have a secondary place to stay should speak volumes in terms of this freindship and how it’s no longer even. I’m sick of things only being halfway when I’m trying with certain fucking people and I can bail and close ranks and not give a flying fuck about anyone anymore when I’m not being treated with respect esp. given to mine and my brothers financial situation. I don’t mind making sacrifices but I’m still going to make sure that my main fucking priorities are taken care of. I’m not going to pretend to keep th

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