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Psychological War


So anyways, the good and the bad is all out their laid bare for everyone to see, at least some of the more positive things i am wanting to happen are happening. I can see a lot of nonsense around me and I can see when someone is trying to direct messages to me, that's ok, I'm smart enough to direct them back and have some meaning to them, i.e. don't come round here No more, at least i know what I'm feeling most of the time, because it's anger and annoyance, I don't need to compete with a woman whose just a little girl whose two years older than me but more immature than my 6 year old. I live my life as who i am and provide for who I need to and that's it. there's no point in playing a game of one upmanship because you'll always have had the car and the house and everything before me... but of course i had the happiness and I don't live in a world full of misery by my own choosing, At least i can say i stood on my own two feet and never backed down from you or anyone and did what i wanted to in my life and that's all that matters.

Current Mood: Annoyance.
Don't hold to anger, hurt or pain. They steal your energy and keep you from love.

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