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Insane Asylum.

I need to convince myself why i am doing this job agian, after 8 months we are finally going to have a staff meeting and be on the same page, you mean we might actually clear up some lingering issues that management has caused, oh golly gee, wouldnt that be swell, of course on the other hand quoting from the bible about he cast the first stone or some shit and letting all the indivual staff have their own little fiefdoms is bullshit, and the whole idea that you even try and refernce the bible around an employee is unaccepatable, some of us dont share your beliefs and if you spew bible crap down my throat it will get dealt with at the labour board level, but its not even that, there are rules in place for these kids for a reason and spoiling them and letting them have their way when they have a temper tantrum makes me more of a gloryfied fucking babysitter than anything esle, it doesnt help when certian staff, who arent working MY overnight shift are undercutting me by saying oh i could have handled that situation better instead of how Nick was a hardass, theres a fucking reason Im a hardass ive been dealing with these kids for the last eight months, youve done what 2 weeks of shifts... i think i know these kids better than you... and ive been with the organization dealing with their other kids for almost 2 fucking years, i think i know my job, Im the fucking warden of the Insane Asylum.

Current Mood: Insane, just like everyone else.
Madness is the emergency exit. You can just step outside, and close the door on all those dreadful things that happened. You can lock them away... forever.

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