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Misery Loves Company

Its interesting to see who is either offline from facebook or has removed me from facebook, i am so fucking glad that i dont define my life or my childs life by the person i am with, even tho i usually dont involve my little man in my relationships other than maybe having my freind around for coffee, its not like i meet someone and two weeks later i move in with them and have them living in my apartment, i make better decisions than that, but of course im not her, and im not batshit crazy, i dont define myself by who im with, even if i end up hurt in the end and i come running to the one constant in my life because i am that childs father and i am not going anywhere.... but thats her.. and thats her life.. and i cant change her.. its not like any of our relationships werent defined by the fact that she came running back when she had emotional troubles...

Current Mood:Confused.
The most abusive words that I hear are `never again,` ... Have we learned from history? I do not know.

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