I cant wait for tommorow to come, this shift cant come fast enough for me, i cant wait to have my little man for the weekend and just enjoy myself without all the bullshit stressors that have been happening recently, sometimes i just want to hide in a hole and not come out until everyones gone away, it funny how things change in your life and you go from being loud and angry to insightful and quiet, and how you desire those things when you dont have them, im still angry but i feel i have changed and its the reason i cant relate to certian people is the fact that im not the same person that they expect me to be, even over the last two years ive mellowed, there have been so many personailty changes i dont think an earlier version of myself would recognize me, i hardly do in the mirror, when my patience level for things i used to do as a jackass is very low, it makes me wonder, when the fuck did i take the oppurtunity to grow up.....Current Mood: Tired.
I love to play hide and seek with my kid, but some days my goal is to find a hiding place where he can't find me until after high school.
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