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Queen of the Reich III

Nothing like a last minute message to ruin my plans for the weekend, if the game playing is going to continue i am going to involve the fucking authorities and have police enforcement, its is interesting to note that your phone number is currently not working as well, you can't deprive my son of his father for over a month, this is just nonsense and game playing and it is a direct attack upon me to wait till friday fucking morning to let me know hes sick, you have a family gathering, the more i hear it the more it smacks of bullshit and the lack of commuincation makes me think you are trying to push me away agian, newsflash, I am going to start persuing the letter of the law in terms of my cort order so you will be seeing a lot fucking more of me... my son has a right to see his father, i dont apprecaite the games that you have been fucking playing and I have the feeling the revolving door is spinning agian and you have a new boyfreind and you are trying to push me away yet agian, i got a newsflash for you Cunt... i have been pushed away since the last day of 04, i dont know what i ever saw in you and why i ever thought i could possibly fucking be in love with you, i cannot belive the woman who bore my child treats me like this, and worse I cannot understand why you do this shit to your own son, he loves us both equally shouldn't that be enough? at least I know, I'm not going to be the one he grows up to hate.

Current Mood: Angry.
I imagine one of the reasons people cling to their hates so stubbornly is because they sense, once hate is gone, they will be forced to deal with pain.

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