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it really bothers me when i realize that its not about the quantity of the time i spend with my son, but the quality of it, i think he gets more out of adventures with me just hanging out and doing what he likes to do and what i like to do, than he gets at home, some of his comment about the new boyfreind agian, and other things he just doesnt want to talk about bothers me,its really hard being a single father sometimes, esp. when little man seems like he would rather be here forever and doesnt want to go home.... it troubles me greatly when he says things like they didnt do anything last weekend even tho she took the weekend away and the wonderful new one sided communication from her is constantly ending everytime time she gets a new loser... another guy from the gutter.. i dont know why she has these people around my fucking pride and joy.. but i cant control her... one day shell fuck up.. and then hell be mine all mine.. or hell grow up and reject her.. and it will be the things i taught him he will Remeber... and thats whats important.

Current Mood: Depressed.
When you teach your son, you teach your son's son.

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