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Fear Itself

I'm still angry, but I am very aware of How much you fear me and how I can use that to my advantage, It's better to be feared that loved, and I for one do not Fear you and I never have, I fear the damage you are doing, but In terms of intimidation that's a one way street, you're decision to go unrepresented is a great idea and one I applaud as that will make it so much easier to expose you, it will take longer but It will prove your character to all parties involved. you're credibility is already shot, and the long you try and draw this out the longer you will lose even more credibility and i will be eventually vindicated. Unlike you who decided to announce your whole flawed Strategy plan in a open setting, I am keeping my cards very fucking close to the vest, and i assure you, if you are afraid now, you have no idea what ghosts i will dredge up from your past to haunt you, I have the upper hand and you know it, and I have had for quite some time.... you are afraid, and I am not... And that Gives me a Power you can never and will never hold over me.

Current Mood: Determined.
You can discover what your enemy fears most by observing the means he uses to frighten you.

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