The Ultimate Battle.

Give me one good reason why I shouldn't do something stupid and turn this whole battle into a pyschial one. the things that you have said are so fucking disgusting and disturbing it's like you are reading out of a fucking manual on how to destroy someone... but guess what... due to circumstances i am the strongest motherfucking person i know and i will never fucking back down. the m,ore games you play and the more lies that are told the worse in the end that you are going to fucking look. this is a game just like evey other time... i just have to sit pateintly and wait for you to continue your fucking horseshit. while you do that i'll wait and bide my time... this is the biggest battle of my life and lo and behold look who i am having it with.... you are not worth my time and the more i read of everything the more i understand this is for revenge... something i can and will never feel for you... only because of him. that being said.. i will fight you until my dying breath... you have no right to do this to him.

Current Mood: KILL,KILL,KILL.
Revenge is a confession of pain

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The Laugh Track.

I want you in my life. Don't ever fucking confuse that for needing you in my life. Those two things are mutually exclusive to each other. I'm fine with my life and it's not my freind's and my social life that I'm jealous of. We both made our choices. My life has always been an insane carnival. You were merely an extended chapter. But if you think I'm going to sit at home being sad and depressed and shutting down because your not in my life. Your delusional. Then agian we already know this. If my life is going to be a sad comedy then I'll make it a metal massacre. I'm not sitting around waiting for anyone. The least of all you. I sacrificed enough time on the altar of what might have been. I'm just enjoying the time that we have left. This way if it go out, it's on my own terms. I always told you that my funeral pyre will be a blaze of glory.. I just never told you when. Now I'm gonna live and have adventures. Remain jealous. You know how ...

Father and Son.

I dont know the next step. I don't claim to. I just know I'm working to rebuild a relationship that has been fractured for many years. That includes both of you. I am here. I will always be here, I have always been here that will never change This weekend was epic and it felt right. I don't know what will happen but i do know that I am at peace with being civil and polite with your mom. It was nice to have a little adventure as a family. It felt right. It what was missing in our lives. Thank you.

The Trees.

I am really bothered by someone hurting my tree. I’m not sure the next step but that’s a living thing. I know that there is no healing when our things are still affected negatively by people. I’m not sure what the next step is but I know this is part and parcel of the entire thing and that we can’t heal when people hurt the things we care about. I don’t have much but I do have a legacy to protect and there is a place where my son needs to feel safe, and I don’t think it will ever be that house agian. But once it was home, there are good memories there. There was love. Part of that is the peace that was our tree. I’m sick of people damaging the things I love. The world needs to be better and less selfish. I need peace in mine and her lives. Even if we are separate in our lives. She needs the peace and quiet I have in my life. Even more than I do. And only one of us has it.

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