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Round Two.

Actually it's more like round fucking seventeen, more of the same usual hysterics and nonsense from the opposing party... I cannot believe her fucking manipulative bitch ways.. it took all my manhood and all my strength not to go all Hannibal Lecter on her today and eat her fucking heart... the only problem with that is I am not entirely convinced she has one...I cannot believe i once referred to that disgusting sow as the love of my life. all she has ever wanted to do is take my heart and soul and destroy it, If I'd walked away she wouldn't have had that opportunity but of course I'm not like that... you want to get rid of my beating heart, and everything i feel.. you'll have to fucking kill me... until then I am going to use every fucking resource i have and never Fucking stop fighting, the saddest part is what Friday is, but of course, I'll still celebrate... the countdown begins to 8 to ten years till he can make his own decisions and decide for himself what kind of a black hole she is... and Ten years from Now, i will still be there to answer all of his questions.

Current Mood: Very, Very Angry.
Hating people is like burning down your own house to get rid of a rat.

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