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Up Hill Battles...

The battle from now on is an uphill battle, and the light at the end of it and some small victories appear to be seen. it will be a long process but it seems that the start of it has begun and a lot of the anger and hate of recent days is dissapainting... I am doing the right things and while i may piss some people off that is part of my nature, as long as the right people are getting pissed off and at the end of the day the ultimate goal remains the samethere is no reason for me to ever doubt myself or decide that i need to just walk away, i'm too strong for that.. standing my ground today and making sure that things are happening the right way for the right reason is All about who I am... in this game of lies it's going to come down to character and I know that I am one... but i also know I am a better one... and the thin threads around anothers are beginning to tear apart at the seams.... i just need to keep looking forward to the immidate goal... which is most important.

Current Mood: Positive.
The battle of life is, in most cases, fought uphill; and to win it without a struggle were perhaps to win it without honor. If there were no difficulties there would be no success; if there were nothing to struggle for, there would be nothing to be achieved.

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