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Fractured.


There are people in my life that need to either go very fucking far away or stop living in their delusions, when you make comments that have absolutely no base in reality and it's obvious you are either doing a mind screw or trying to give me hope or some sort of twisted way of cheering me up it's not needed, unless you can prove what you are saying it just rings hollow... I know exactly what i am dealing with and one persons delusions and craziness does not need to be compounded by another Idiots attempt to give me false hope... Destiny I'll make on my own, people need to start living in the real world and not ones that they create in their mind... I'm sick of having to live in someone else delusions.... it's been a year, It will end soon.. I really don't need your fucking help trying to fool my mind, it plays enough tricks on me on it's own.

Current Mood: Annoyed.
There's nothing I like less than bad arguments for a view I hold dear.

The battlefield is a scene of constant chaos. The winner will be the one who controls that chaos, both his own and the enemies.

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