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The Longest Day

Today went as expected, interesting to see the outburst meant to arose some kind of emotion out of me at the end of the day, but some serious tactical errors were made and when i know i'm the one keeping my cool it's all good, silence speak volumes and my silence speaks louder than anything i can say or do.... as does her actions, it's a game and it will continued to be played, today was all about little victories and i got what was needed and that's all that was asked for, it's nice to see epic fail on display tho, I have have to remember who the better person is.... i can't let her get under my skin, she who angers you wins, and today.. it was just sad, i was laughing about it minutes later because i don't care, again my stoic silence speaks volumes about my character and about who and what i am and what I am not.

Current mood: Focused.
Carry the battle to them. Don't let them bring it to you. Put them on the defensive and don't ever apologize for anything

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