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Use Your Fist and Not Your Mouth.


Determination is the first and last thing when it comes to my life, without it i would not have survived all of the hells i have experienced in my life...I will never back down from anything when i know that i am not in the wrong, It hasn't been my choice to make my life and the life of my child's hell, it is beyond fathomable that things would turn out this way, but of course when you are dealing with the most vindictive of persons there is no choice, I have to stand strong and not be defeated, i have to sit here and be the strongest person i know when even inside i am breaking down, I have to bottle up all my anger and hate towards the situation, it's not the easiest even when you can see the other person that is trying to destroy you constantly failing, but until i can prove that failure i am at the mercy and misery of her lies and bullshit....At least in my world, one doesn't use their mouth to end their fights, when I get into a fight i always go ready to win and ready to lose, but if i'm gonna lose i'm gonna use my fists.... I'm gonna go down swinging...always fighting for what i believe in, and who is most important in my life.

Current Mood: Determined.
I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

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