My life may be coming apart, But it is clear to me after other's actions yesterday that I am not alone in that, and that the way you behave towards people may have an everlasting effect upon everyone around you... I hope I am never that miserable and never see the world as somewhere where it has to be a certain way.. i get it.. the world is crumbling around and you are struggling for some semblance of order... but the truth is you don't treat friends and family trying to help you in that way, I can't and won't take sides... even tho this whole thing is resulting in me losing my home and security of the last three years toooo.. this was my home as well... but a little respect goes a long way for a reason And i don't like being treated like dogshit... I can be an asshole too but out of respect I was not... Things are clearer now and I am less angry about the situation even tho I am still as torn up about the situation, but I know how to deal with adversity and changes constantly coming at me in my life like Bullet's rapid fire... i can deal I have defense mechanisms and safety shields in place to protect me and my child...this is why I am not the most trustful person and It is hard to let anyone in to become a friend... I am too used to too often being betrayed.. this is why Windsor is currently a serious consideration... I have peace there... I have people other than family that have my back..not bound by blood but by friendship.. I have options and I would rather examine all of them than get miserable in my situation and just let that dark energy consume me.
Current Mood: Not Amused.
Knowing your own darkness is the best method for dealing with the darknesses of other people.
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