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Angry Demons

I can be Angry one day and totally depressed and In the dumps about my situation and within minutes or hours i can turn that around and make it a positive and manipulate the situation to my advantage, My anger motivates me.. it will give me fuel to survive and do what I need... there are levels I am willing to take to survive and Some might not always agree with my choices but at this point the options are there that can be more beneificial than a nuclear option, but i still have that in my back pocket if all else fails... the only reason i'd go for that one is knowing that I have secruity.. at this point there are several options and i just need to be angry, use it for fire in my belly and Make a good decision, for the moment... some times it's gotta be about me...

Current Mood: Determined.
I think, when one has been angry for a very long time, one gets used to it. And it becomes comfortable like... like old leather. And finally... it becomes so familiar that one can't remember feeling any other way.

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