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Robots In Disguise...

The next step in any planning for my life is to be very fucking firm with the people in my life that cause stress and conflict, one this business thing is very much a 50/50 proposition and i'm no longer going to be treated like the hired help, i am doing 95% of all the work and repairs and planning for shit because i actually have fucking knowledge of the mythology and of who and what the character's are, i have do all the research on them as well... in have other things in my life as well that take presendence and i can't wait entire days waiting on someone else, if i'm not available you can fucking wait...i wasted almost two days but the good news is that my house is getting cleaned up and stuff is moving out of my house the way i want it to, and i am getting closer to having little man home at least in my fucking mind as i set up his bed and futon and desk in his room and will soon set up the entertainment unit in their as well... it's time to start looking forward and stop pretending my life is a dismal dark place i don't want to be.. i'm thinking positive I'm having fun and I just need to stay focused.

Current Mood: Determined.
A mind at peace, a mind centered and not focused on harming others, is stronger than any physical force in the universe.

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