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Shattered Mirror...


I have very much in my life that causes me to hate and very much in my life that anger's me and makes me think the world is s hit hole.. but i also have things in my life that make me want to keep living, maybe now more than ever i need to concentrate on the good things and let the angers and the hatreds that are blocking my way be by gone... I know that I have anger and sometimes it bubbles up to the surface even past all of the ways i use to keep it down, but I prefer being the peaceful calm and serene person i am most of the time... sometimes i let the darkside in too much and i let the things that keep me in the darkness affect me too much, It's very easy to fall for the trap of the dark side it's much easier to let the darkness overtake... but i'm still here I'm still standing... I'm not going anywhere, I am strong, the people around me are strong people and we need to remember that and keep fighting for, what we are fighting for.. because in the end that's all that matters...

Current Mood: Determined.
A Rattlesnake, if Cornered will become so angry it will bite itself. That is exactly what the harboring of hate and resentment against others is - a biting of oneself. We think we are harming others in holding these spites and hates, but the deeper harm is to ourselves.

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