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The Rise Of Cobra..

I am very happy with myself today and it is nice to finally have things going in the right direction, I like the fact that for once something is going in a positive direction that NO ONE CAN EVER TAKE AWAY from me... This current adventure is not something I need anyone else for and it is working itself out, It's stressful but it's kinda nice knowing that I can walk away from it at any time without any guilt, and while I am doing it I am having fun and meeting people with similar interest and we can shoot the shit about comic books actions figures and other interests, this beat sitting at home with a hole in my heart wallowing in self pity and the endless torment of pain of the dark cloud i have been living under for years, it's time to move forward it's time to kick some ass, No more poor pity me.

Current Mood: Determined.
Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts.

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