Another reason for all the current anger and angst is the current living situiation while i have been trying to create a safe enviorment for my child and me when things come down to it the fucking reality is that this not a long term situation and the sooner i get frustrated and say fuck it all the better as there is a real reality of the fact that i may end up being taken advantage of here... i am getting extremely frustrated by some of the game playing and the fact that i may not have much of a legal leg to stand on in terms of her, not mine family court politics, I don't like being dishonest to anyone, and i like even less when it's very clear stupid political games are being played in the lives of children... i am almost regretting not moving to Windsor and helping out a friend and I am seriously debating making a trip out there to go deal with that possibility in the near future, it means a huge sacrifice one I am unwilling to make, but i also understand why I was placed in my current situation and I will be dealing with the ones responsible... I know that it is not the only issue i have but every time i see a little light at the end of the tunnel the fucking darkness returns... it's a good place but the games are getting to me.. and I will not be left out in the cold at the end of the situation, i will protect myself... i'm just losing patience. I know exactly why this is my only current choice and I will be following up with the bullshit that is that situation very soon.I worked hard all my fucking life, i deserve better than this. it's time to fucking deal with that situation too.. but this should not be happening i worked hard and kept a place i couldn't afford before, i shouldn't be making fucking sacrifices so someone else can have a better life than i currently have, it's time for the world to revolve around me for once...Current Mood: Angry.
I'm not as bad as I look... I'm worse.
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