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Shattered Glass III

I am not sure what the next step is and I am completely unsure of my place of being right now, I know that my dark side is equally balanced by a light side, but i find myself staring far to often in the abyss with unanswered questions and that their are days i want to jump right in and embrace the complete darkness, yet for the little lights in my night sky i choose not to...I honestly don't see anything but darkness at the end of the road and i wonder if it would be easier to succumb to the darker side and just disappear from everyone's lives and make things easier on them and find my own path once again alone.. in darkness.. I am angry at my life and my place in it and I know the reasons for the place i am in and all i can do is move forward but the longer i sit and wait in boredom and in nothing, the more i wonder about the path not chosen.

Current Mood: Angry, Depressed.
A person often meets his destiny on the road he took to avoid it.

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