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Shattered Glass IV: Bizarro World.

I am angry and I don't know what the next step in my evolution is going to be, while things have changed i don't have a clue as to any certainty in my life and I really don't like sitting around being a ball of rage waiting around on phone calls that might never come... the worst part is due to all the confusion in my private life i may or may not have a place i can go and hide and be myself anymore, that may also have been taken away from me due to compassion for another soul or two and respecting their privacy and silence, I want to run away and go home but that place right now is another place where i could Do more Harm than good, I do not see anything at the end of these multiple black holes except for the bring red burn of rage and anger, I know that some of it I have caused myself and I know some of it is not my own fault and i question everything Including my own sanity but I am so fed up with the world right now and it seems to b shrinking and getting smaller, i have serious questions about the validity of my next step and why i sit being an abject warrior when the universe is closing in around me, maybe it's time to let the fates win, Nah....

Current Mood: Lost.
Actions are the seed of fate deeds grow into destiny.

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