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Pale Rider...

I don't know the next step, and I really don't know how to break myself of all these negative emotions inside, even when i go out and hang out with friends i still see the side of them that is dragging me down and I cannot be happy, it's time for a change i think, part of the reason for this ensuing darkness is my surroundings, i think as long as I remain in the Hamilton area i can never be happy and while it would be very easy to be pushed away, it is even easier for me to be the prick and be an asshole and stand my ground here and show that I am stronger than anything forced upon me.. I just wish the road wasn't so dark and i could see a light ahead instead of the grim reaper nipping at my already growing cold corpse.

Current mood: Determined.
I failed many times in my life and I have done things in the past that I'm not proud of. My past is a part of me, but it doesn't define me.

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