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War For Cybertron..

It is one thing to deal with assholes and the politics of these assholes at a toy convention when all i am doing with it is trying to support myself and make a daily fucking wage... but when i am getting pressure to sell by someone who is and always will be a boss and an aquiantance and nothing more, because the friendship thing is not likely to ever happen and then come home and have issues over having stuff that i move daily for big bucks is getting to me.. there is too much bullshit in my life regarding other things.. it is organized and it is my living area.. I am getting fucking sick of the nonsense at home where i do nice things and help out and spend entire days wasted to only get shit on when i take a day for myself to make some money or to deal with my friends who are buying stuff off me... it's rather frustrating to have to deal with rules constantly changing and constant complaints.. if it continues i will be apartment hunting, i need a safe place for my kid not to be a monthly income and a prisoner in my own living quarters...I've been thru that once recently, it's not fucking likely to happen agian... just getting fed up with the world, and the worst thing is she knows there's a nest egg and there is money put away for something very important and that needs to be dealt with, but there is the constant guilt trip around when she needs help, i'm not the husband and i'm not going to keep being involved in the household if their are constant mind games, i have no problem moving on.. it's all I've ever done in my life.. i have one permanent emotional attachment and anyone else, I can take it or leave it with them being in my life... especially someone who at the end of the fucking day is a landlord.

Current Mood: Frustrated.
The size of your success is measured by the strength of your desire; the size of your dream; and how you handle disappointment along the way.

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