Yup, it's that time of year again, the pain is dulled this year as i have managed to keep both mind and soul distracted, but i am still very tempted to go into niagara and drop off a gift or three under the door if for nothing else so he has them, but i can see the end of the battle coming, this will be the last time i spend the holiday's without him, i Have people around me to feel my blessings and I will spend time with them even tho he is never very far from my heart currently... there is darkness this holiday around us and not just me, but it's also a year for celebration as thing's have improved... I am finally feeling comfortable in my new place and i will be very happy when i can get him their to check out his new room, some decisions of the past year are becoming easily forgot... I am looking forward to the holiday tomorrow for the first time in a few years even if i still miss my little boy..Santa claus will come, there will be gift's for you under the tree when I finally get you home... just like every other year. I can imagine this will be a different christmas as well for you, and I feel that and wish with every part of my soul i could be there, but at least i will be there in spirit. You're Daddy has and never will forget about you, Merry Christmas Son, I'll see you soon. This isn't a time for anger or hatred, just know when you read this that I wished you were here, and I tried as hard as I could to get you here. Next year, I promise.....
Current Mood: Sad.
Current Music: Twisted Sister,I'll Be Home For Christmas
The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don’t always soften the bad things, but vice versa the bad things don’t always spoil the good things and make them unimportant
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