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Dark Christmas.

Another year, Another missing part of soul, But it's over with for another year..I'm happy but there is a huge part of my life that is missing right now, and i am Sad. i have SuperHero's and transformers and nice things at home hiding in a closet that should have been under a tree, and it's frustrating that i don't have that opportunity, I keep trying to decide whether or not i should just leave something at the door like i have in years past but i can't fight the darkness and apathy provided so i will just continue to have the things hidden away and be terribly sad, This isn't the way things should be but it is the way things are, so even tho i am frustrated and hurting i am enjoying myself this christmas, and I hoping to next year have him playing with his cousin's and eating plant's again... god i miss him terribly this time of year and it hurt's like hell. At least i am surrounded by family and people i care about and that's exactly where i should be right now, it does bring a semblance of happiness in my life and I am grateful for that, there's just the hollowness that never quite goes away, no matter where i'm at or where i go.

Current Mood: Sad.
Some people live more in 20 years than others do in 80. It’s not the time that matters, it’s the person.

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