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A Good Man Goes to War...

Demons run when a good man goes to war
Night will fall and drown the sun
When a good man goes to war

Friendship dies and true love lies
Night will fall and the dark will rise
When a good man goes to war

Demons run, but count the cost
The battle's won, but the child is lost


Everything In my life is replaceable save one person, It just hurts and bites that around the time of the holidays not only do i not have my little man standing beside me but some of his belongings that have been saved and put away from him that i have worked hard to get for him are missing and possibly stolen by some selfish and ignorant individuals, I am turning mean and I am turning dark, I am considering everything but right now i need to concentrate on the future and not what's behind me.. it's time to focus on the approaching battle and deal with that matter at hand, It's better than trying to deal with things i have no control over, If i'm going to be angry let's be angry at something i can deal with rather than a stab in the back that is now in the past, brooding and dwelling on a minor event is just stupid no matter how angry it may make me. it's time to go to war, it's time to deal with that so i am never in any situation like my most recent one agian.

Current Mood: Angry.
One may tolerate a world of demons for the sake of an angel.

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