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Christmas Present...

Sometimes it not about anything but the people around you on the holidays, this is the first time in years i am actually enjoying myself over the holidays and it is because there is a missing piece of the puzzle here, but there are more pieces of the puzzle that are missing that should be here...I am less sad than i have any right to be but there is a lot of things that still need to be fixed but the healing has started and next year, it should be interesting, i am hoping it doesn't take that time for for the little meeting of the minds... because that needs to happen as soon as possible because that's the one thing that's awesome. there will be some serious surprises, soon. there is still a lot left to be resolved and some of the uncertain pain is still evident but it is one day at a time and today went a long way towards feeling some of the healing. I know that there are two awesome people in the world as long as even if i can be in there life even on the fringe edges that's good enough for me.

Current Mood: Happy.
For some people, small, beautiful events are what life is all about.

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