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Dark Energon II

I am getting extremely fucking sick of the bullshit and games inherent in my current gig, i am seriously thinking again, about walking away from it.. i do not like losing money and not taking a cut to help someone pay his fucking bills down... and then i find out he's still spending money like fucking water, and then being pressured to make more fucking sales... i'm barely holding on, and i have a lot less comfortable life than yours... my son's fucking games better show up soon or be fucking replaced as I am getting seriously fucking fed up of the bullshit and being second guessed and pushed around, you're a fucking midget and when i get angry enough to put you into a fucking wall and lose my mind it's time to walk away, I do no need the stress level this fucking bullshit is causing, fucking games and bullshit. maybe it's time, this shit has served it's purpose but i am constantly getting angry and stressed out, just like every other fucking job i've had, If i did not need to fuel my battles and survive i would be long fucking gone... at this point i'm just sick of it all... doesn't help when i'm the one that is losing money and using my circle of contacts to make a lot more money but losing out, and it's happened more than fucking once... by July i'll be out and done.. one last big payday then fuck it. it's getting to be too much of a pain in the ass, i'd rather be broke. this is going to be a rough fucking month and i don't get any fucking sympathy i just get demands to fucking produce, here's a newsflash, If i wanted a real job i'd have one.., i do not need the fucking stress.

Current Mood: Pissed OFF Again.
Current Music: Eminem, So Much Better
If I were warmer, I would have an appropriately venomous reply. Be warned...I owe you one

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