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...The End Begins...

in·ev·i·ta·ble
inˈevitəbəl/
adjective: inevitable
certain to happen; unavoidable.
"war was inevitable"
"at this point, war is inevitable"
noun
noun: inevitable
a situation that is unavoidable.


It's time for the next stage of this fucking battle... and the only thing fucking left to do is set a date and finish the fight.. their is very little at this moment past that one option i can do, So that's the option i must take... and watch the damned fall where they may, myself included... there is only one innocent person at play, that is known to me now.. it's time to fight and win for the one innocent soul.. all the anger in the hate in the world will never erase the fact that he is my son and that I have done nothing wrong...of course, when one person i used to hold dear now see's me of the embodyment of everything that's gone wrong in her life the battle can be that much harder... I don't mind being deserving even of her hate, but he shouldn't be affected by it and her decisions going forward.. it's time to end this... it's time to stop playing the games of the fucking system of control and let the world end at it's own time... the sooner i get this where it should be, which is now.. the sooner the game will unravel... My world has already collapsed, you cannot destroy me any further... but the same does not go for you it's the only inevitable conclusion.

Current Mood: Determined.
I think I’ll dismember the world and then I’ll dance in the wreckage.

And I just walked away. Again and again, I walked away as her world fell down around her. As they destroyed her. We destroyed her.

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