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'cause one thing I never asked was
Where the fuck my deadbeat dad was
Fuck it, I guess he had trouble keeping up with every address
But I'd have flipped every mattress, every rock and desert cactus
Own a collection of maps and followed my kids to the edge of the atlas
Someone ever moved them from me? That you coulda bet your asses
If I had to come down the chimney dressed as Santa, kidnap them

It's time to move things forward... I have all the cards and it's time to turn this fucking thing around... make no mistake about it I am at war... and my own dark thoughts have betrayed me more than once, my anger too.. but it's time to put the chess pieces in motion and let the fucking chips fall where they may... their is only one place this can possibly end and it's time to make the next step towards ultimate victory, I did not start this battle and ten years of it on and off is more than i can bear... this time 10 years ago i was in university and free doing things i wanted to do with my life and hanging out with friends who accepted me for me and not someone that they thought i was.,.. it's time for me to find that person again, i am happy with who i am right now but their is a big black gaping fucking hole in my chest that has been there for almost three years... and I intend on changing that fucking situation as soon as i can... remember in war only one side writes the history... and I don't intend on being the fucking loser.... you know me better than that... No matter the cost or the situation i don't back down or fail, you know this better than most..

Current Mood: Angry, Determined.
Current Mood: headlights, Eminem
Much can be accomplished with a smile. More can be accomplished with a smile and a gun.

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