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War Is Hell

I am starting to see with some crystal clarity the good things in my life and the things that are fucking missing and it's time to regain them, deep down at my core i know exactly who I am and the people i choose to surround myself with and trust know the same thing, it's time to show the rest of the world that, even if it means that i have to burn some bridges that are smoldering and you know what? I already have the fucking gasoline and the zippo. this has to be about more than settling old scores and revenge, I am not that person... I don't want to ever be brought down to her level I am better than that.. but i am still a creature of emotion and anger... finding peace at one point with my self and the universe was a sign of weakness.. i am best when I am agiasnt the world and watching it burn.. questioning everything... i have one goal and only one thing that means anything, it's time to follow it thru and end this shit... it's not my soul in the balance. at the end of the day it doesn't matter what i've done as long as he knows that I loved him and never stopped fighting for him.

Current Mood: Determined, Angry.
Current Music: Eminem, Evil Twin.
The voice says, maybe you don't go to hell for the things you do. Maybe you go to hell for the things you don't do. The things you don't finish.

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