Skip to main content

Happy.

Second chances don't come around all that often. I suggest you take a really close look at it. This is your chance to earn that look in your son's eyes, to become the hero that he already thinks you are.

I have fun with my fucking life when I can. Some of those moments are few and far between but the odd time things do work in my life I appreciate them, right now is one of those times and I'm about to go head first into one of the darkest weeks of my life, I need as many of these moments as I can get. Sunday (the football game) was one of those incredible moments you only get once in a lifetime or two, and then this morning I actually feel like I'm starting to get my life back. It feels good to be happy and not angry with a lot of aspects of my life,it's not something I'm accustomed to. It's something I want back in my life. The movie was pretty awesome too, I enjoyed finally having a sidekick into marvel movies like me agian, it's never going to be exactly the same but the plan is that it becomes 3 rather than one next time for captain America, Civil war. There are highs and lows to this life as in any life, and the fact is due to freinds and family, this life is starting to make me feel normal agian, I'm drifting away from the darknesses and anger that's not doing anyone any good and slowly eliminating some of those fucking factors from my life, I don't need them, these toys or any outside bullshit that brings me down in my life. I have to be the hero, the man my son deep in his heart already knows I am. I am starting to even believe that myself after years of fucking doubting it, I'm becoming the man I used to be, no wait, I'm becoming someone better.

There is nothing better than waking up in the morning and playing action figures, this time it was g1 transformers, pretty awesome to do, nothing like pew pew pew first thing, I do have a pretty awesome and kid freindly collection and that's one of the few things that I can still enjoy about toys. Wasn't bad seeing ant man Tuesday either. things i should be doing with my son anyways, it's nice to be doing them with him even without my son around. Pretty fucking happy right now. Starting to feel normal agian, it's been a long time. Pretty fucking cool that both of these two are into pinball as well, kinda kick ass I've been able to play it with both of them, it's been a long time since I could enjoy the simpler things in my life like going to the movies and playing with toys, it beats the other bullshit in my life and gives me hope, something badly needed in my darkest of times. today was another one of those amazing things, after doing inventory at the locker it was nice to go on a world war 2 battleship to just check it out and have some fun.

Current Mood: Hopeful

It's not about saving our world. It's about saving THEIRS.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.
Post a Comment
Read more

Bad Man.

I am not a good man, I tell people straight out that I’m not a good person. I know I’m toxic. But I embrace being the villain and being the bad guy. Being feared is better than being loved because at least that way you respect me. When it comes to someone I care about and have a responsibility to, I will always choose them over others fucking bullshit and drama. This isn’t a choice. This is my life. Period. I live it every damn day. I’m not Making any other choices. I will always choose those that I care about over people that are merely in orbit in my life and if you give me a reason to fucking doubt you? I will give u a reason to fucking fear me.  I’m just fed up, my world doesn’t need complications. My peace and my piece of mind doesn’t need complications. I have enough of those I struggle against in my personal life. This is the end game, and the end times. I deserve to be fucking happy. No one is getting in the fucking way of that. Period. 
Post a Comment
Read more

The Remedy

I am reminded when I need someone how truly alone I am in this world. Because for as much as I am the constant and the shoulder to cry on. The same respect isn’t accorded to me, obviously. It hasn’t been in years. This is why I have never and will never need you. I don’t need anyone. Especially when I am fucking hurting over a lost freind.  I hurt, I get to do that. I’m fine with that. I process and move on. I spend a couple days where I block out the world and keep going but I’m fine.  I don’t accord anyone I don’t trust or respect the time of day. It’s not about who it is. I’ll willing burn a bridge im fucking standing on if it means I take you with me if I see you as my enemy.  I’m on a quest for peace, anything that gets in the way of that or causes turmoil in my life can get the fuck out of my way or become ash, because I will go the fuck thru you. Affect my responsibilities in my life, I will accord the same respect you do to them, I don’t mind being a blunt instrum...
Post a Comment
Read more