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Second chances don't come around all that often. I suggest you take a really close look at it. This is your chance to earn that look in your son's eyes, to become the hero that he already thinks you are.

I have fun with my fucking life when I can. Some of those moments are few and far between but the odd time things do work in my life I appreciate them, right now is one of those times and I'm about to go head first into one of the darkest weeks of my life, I need as many of these moments as I can get. Sunday (the football game) was one of those incredible moments you only get once in a lifetime or two, and then this morning I actually feel like I'm starting to get my life back. It feels good to be happy and not angry with a lot of aspects of my life,it's not something I'm accustomed to. It's something I want back in my life. The movie was pretty awesome too, I enjoyed finally having a sidekick into marvel movies like me agian, it's never going to be exactly the same but the plan is that it becomes 3 rather than one next time for captain America, Civil war. There are highs and lows to this life as in any life, and the fact is due to freinds and family, this life is starting to make me feel normal agian, I'm drifting away from the darknesses and anger that's not doing anyone any good and slowly eliminating some of those fucking factors from my life, I don't need them, these toys or any outside bullshit that brings me down in my life. I have to be the hero, the man my son deep in his heart already knows I am. I am starting to even believe that myself after years of fucking doubting it, I'm becoming the man I used to be, no wait, I'm becoming someone better.

There is nothing better than waking up in the morning and playing action figures, this time it was g1 transformers, pretty awesome to do, nothing like pew pew pew first thing, I do have a pretty awesome and kid freindly collection and that's one of the few things that I can still enjoy about toys. Wasn't bad seeing ant man Tuesday either. things i should be doing with my son anyways, it's nice to be doing them with him even without my son around. Pretty fucking happy right now. Starting to feel normal agian, it's been a long time. Pretty fucking cool that both of these two are into pinball as well, kinda kick ass I've been able to play it with both of them, it's been a long time since I could enjoy the simpler things in my life like going to the movies and playing with toys, it beats the other bullshit in my life and gives me hope, something badly needed in my darkest of times. today was another one of those amazing things, after doing inventory at the locker it was nice to go on a world war 2 battleship to just check it out and have some fun.

Current Mood: Hopeful

It's not about saving our world. It's about saving THEIRS.

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