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I Want Out.




This is not the life I chose. This isn’t where I should be in this moment. But this is where I am. These are the Choices that have been made for me by fate, and I live according to my responsibilities and circumstances.


Doesn’t mean I have to like it, and like every moment of my life I’m not settling. I live regardless of my circumstances. I do things. I don’t sit at home waiting for the next thing in my life to happen. I make those things happen. I go on adventures. I live my life. 


I will never stay home miserable feeling sorry for myself and conforming for a world that never wanted me to fit in anyways. The idea of being normal repulses me. People aren’t jealous because I have the stable home life. The jealousy stems from my adventures. Wishing they could have a life like mine.


But here’s the thing, I fought my battles for decades, I have earned what little happiness I have left and the right to do the things I want.


I did the right thing for long enough. I’m still

Doing the right thing.


I live, I enjoy myself and my loved ones and my friend’s. But when I go dark on you because of you’re actions there is no forgiveness. You are excommunicated and we are done.  It’s getting close to that point Again with a few people I hold dear.


Just because they were once there for you doesn’t mean they will be forever. Remember that.  I can’t count on two hands how many fair weather former friend’s and lovers said they were ride or die, but look at where they aren’t now.


I guess the car crashed.


I don’t care who you are. If you make me feel worthless or that you don’t value me I will be gone. Ask my ex wife. I will ghost you like it was like I never existed.


That’s how I deal with insults and people that only care about themselves. Once it gets to a certain point I will simply be gone. 


It doesn’t matter who the fuck you are. If you need me for any reason take a long look at your actions and react accordingly because I’ve moved on before. I can agian.


And I’ll burn the bridge with Napalm not gasoline and obliterate it.  Without ever looking back once.


One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure it's worth watching.


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