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The Sound Of Silence.




I will be here. You and I both know that. There is no one else. There is no other choice because you will destroy it. I have no question about that. Just like you destroyed everything else. But you have always forgotten, I am the approaching storm, you can’t destroy something like that. You can just tear it down a little bit. But I am a force of nature and I just smile when you drown me in gasoline and I dance in the fire. Because that’s exactly who I am. I have survived things that would have killed and broke a weaker man. 


But that’s part of the attraction isn’t it? That I’m not a weaker man. I take everything you give me and some of it I am aware it is a test and I just smile and get back up on me feet and say is that all you got? Gimme more, and I do it with a fucking psychotic smile…    


This is where we are at right now. You come you go. I don’t really give a shit some days. I’m busy being at peace doing amazing shit with my friends and having epic nights.


You are simply not needed unless you are willing to give it 110% percent. You’re not the only one with an all or nothing expectation.


But you’ve never given me the true moment we need. Why the hell would I pause my life for you?


Enjoy jealousy.

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