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Indestructible.



I can ruin my life all on my own. I don’t need anyones help. This next while is going to be a period of reflection and insight while I decide the next step of whatever the fuck i am going to do. I am choosing the life I should have had all along and I feel no guilt and give no fucks if I leave anyone hanging in my wake. Maybe if some had respected me more I wouldn’t be willing to steamroll my past lives and be whatever my current life is becoming.


The saddest part is some of these people I’ve shared my life with over the years wouldn’t have have such shit lives with me involved in them, but betray me once… you are dead to me. There’s only one person I make an exception for that and I can keep pulling out the knives from my back from her. But people who aren’t good people can’t expect to do bad things and have good lives.


I’m used to be broken and a misfit and loner. But I like my own life and my people. I’ll always figure out my own way and do cool things. Either follow beside me or fuck off, I’m still going to do legendary shit lol.  Those I choose to have in my life now for the most part know the score. They know my ups and downs and how valued they are in my life. 


If your not in my life or you are being ignored wonder why you’re contributions to my life are meaningless, if you treat me as disposable I’m going to treat you the exact fucking same. I don’t need anyone, I never have. I only miss one, and that person and his mother are not at my side and that’s by her choice. I’m just living my fuckin life, as fast as I can for as long as I can. I did the right thing for years… I’m going to enjoy myself now, I haven’t changed. The bad boy still stands tall at the end. 

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