Skip to main content

Popular Monster.




As for anyone that disrespects me or try’s to take advantage of me, I’ve moved on from what I loved for things I love more… i won’t tolerate being taking advantage of from anyone. Not her. Not from someone I once thought was my freind. No one I’ll walk away first.


I don’t care if this thing is popular, it’s also an emotional drain and it has its negative aspects. I walked away from money on the table ten years ago from it, what makes you think that I have any interest in something that doesn’t pay a cent and costs me money?


Fuck off. 


I will ride or die for my true friend’s. But fucking fair-weathers that only take advantage? You don’t live in my fucking world… you don’t know what I fucking deal with every day, you don’t get to fucking talk down to me or anyone I care about. that’s simply not happening. I’m popular sure, everyone loves me.


But I still look into that mirror and see a monster. And I’m fucking fine with that. I’m good, you can love me, you can fucking hate me, I don’t give a shit.


You will fucking respect me.


For those that don’t respect me in my personal life, I will abandon them when they fuck me over. If all you are is adjacent to that, I’ll fuck you off faster than you can say, Toronto.  I don’t care how long the friendship has been. 


I’ve burnt bridges before, all I fucking need is gasoline. Another one won’t fucking hurt. The fact you know what this week is and what this month is and you are one of the few people outside of family that knows that?  And to think at one point I called you family?  


At the end of the day I know that all I am to some is entertainment and an afterthought. Being with my actual nephew who treated me with actual respect and appreciation yesterday proved that. So to be disrespected by someone I trust? The friendship can and will end. I don’t like fair weather people. 


And I know how I see in the mirror. Look at the pit where I go to have fun and to release Agee’s soon. Might not be a brilliant idea to piss me off. Or disrespect me.


I know what I am, it’s just darkness masked by more darkness. I might be popular and liked to be around. But at the end of the day I’m not meeting your parents or your girlfreind. I’m still a monster, even if I’m a popular one.


Don’t make me your enemy. There are already enough people that fear me. Some are justified. Some are about to be. And some just need to fuck the fuck off. 


Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.
Post a Comment
Read more

Bad Man.

I am not a good man, I tell people straight out that I’m not a good person. I know I’m toxic. But I embrace being the villain and being the bad guy. Being feared is better than being loved because at least that way you respect me. When it comes to someone I care about and have a responsibility to, I will always choose them over others fucking bullshit and drama. This isn’t a choice. This is my life. Period. I live it every damn day. I’m not Making any other choices. I will always choose those that I care about over people that are merely in orbit in my life and if you give me a reason to fucking doubt you? I will give u a reason to fucking fear me.  I’m just fed up, my world doesn’t need complications. My peace and my piece of mind doesn’t need complications. I have enough of those I struggle against in my personal life. This is the end game, and the end times. I deserve to be fucking happy. No one is getting in the fucking way of that. Period. 
Post a Comment
Read more

The Remedy

I am reminded when I need someone how truly alone I am in this world. Because for as much as I am the constant and the shoulder to cry on. The same respect isn’t accorded to me, obviously. It hasn’t been in years. This is why I have never and will never need you. I don’t need anyone. Especially when I am fucking hurting over a lost freind.  I hurt, I get to do that. I’m fine with that. I process and move on. I spend a couple days where I block out the world and keep going but I’m fine.  I don’t accord anyone I don’t trust or respect the time of day. It’s not about who it is. I’ll willing burn a bridge im fucking standing on if it means I take you with me if I see you as my enemy.  I’m on a quest for peace, anything that gets in the way of that or causes turmoil in my life can get the fuck out of my way or become ash, because I will go the fuck thru you. Affect my responsibilities in my life, I will accord the same respect you do to them, I don’t mind being a blunt instrum...
Post a Comment
Read more