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Lady Stardust.



Just because i won't fight with you on your fucking birthday mean you get the fucking right to hurt me and yell at me and make me feel like shit the day after. I will always listen and i will always be there for you. But at this point there are other options in my life and im going to fucking persue them. Be happy with your bullshit freinds, Gossip and all that fucking damage and drama in your life. You're jealous that there isn't any in my fucking life. There is a reason for that. Ive made a fucking choice to prioritize my responsibilities and my people that actually care and love me.

I'm not going to allow you to hurt me and twist the knife to hurt me. You created a fight to deflect from your damage and drama and why the fuck i have prioritized this for the last few years. This is a pattern. This is why an end date was chosen. Im going to stick to that. I can't keep doing this on everyone of our significant dates.

There has to be an end. No matter how much i care about you. 25 years is enough


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