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it's interesting how one can have a good day doing what I am good at and still leave feeling deflated ue to office pointless politics...Even tho one likes my boss i wonder if it is indded management at this point that is creating the problems and unrest and the general feeling of uncertianity. double booking someone and then questioning the solution which affects my son and my life and others is starting to bother me quite a bit.. i have sacrificed a lot of time with my son for this job and have recently been reevalutaing that fact. I am unsure as to the fact i do not always have the finaces for rent much less food if i want to continue upon the current path of being able to be the on call guy..I am getting really upset by the fact that i'm an afterthought when it comes to shifts esp. day shifts... if i've done my job badly please let me know... stop affecting my kid with poor shift planning... i only ever asked for 5 days off a month.. i am seriously thinking of taking all of march break off even tho i know there will be shifts.

Current Mood: Frustrated.
It's a shame that the only thing a man can do for eight hours a day is work. He can't eat for eight hours; he can't drink for eight hours; he can't make love for eight hours. The only thing a man can do for eight hours is work.

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