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I honestly think this is the year i am going to find peace, peace of mind, peace internally, peace in my living and employment situation.... there are things changing around me and I need to merely See them, having a postive outlook on things is healthy for me, i thought we were in crisis mode over Blue but after this afternoons phone call we are all good, forgot to mention the mitts and socks tho. next weekend i have him is a full weekend. I think the lines of communication are even more open this year and i think i'm gonna spend most of the year opening myself up to new experinces and studying my spiritaul books and truly being a part of nature... the materialism just isn't worth it anymore, i had forgotten what it was like to enjoy a movie on New years day and not have a care in the world... i am starting to honestly feel agian.. i think the fact that it's been five years is part of the new outlook on the decade... i won't miss the 2000's but the 2010's look promising... i cannot wait to see what the rest of my thirties will bring... I hope it's fun. it's time for things to start over.

Current Mood: Spiritual
Current Music: Are You Gonna Go My Way, Lenny Kravitz
Everything is backwards now, like out there is the true world and in here is the dream

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