Skip to main content

Of Mice and Men...


All the best laid plans can often end up with me taking another route... hopefully i can get to where i need to go with very little bullshit this year...I am trying to maintain the positive emotions i had the first few days of this year but the age old bueractic bullshit once agian rears its head... why work? Why pay taxes? people that claim to have nothing and sit on their ass all day have nice cushy lives, meanwhile i deal with serious behavioral, emotional and pyschatric issues every time i go into work, and i don't get any credit... i guess it's better to suffer... if i was unemployed i'd probaly be better off but it's a point of pride that i am doing exactly what i want to be doing.. even if i have to deal with the goverments bullshit..... and the headaches induced by flouresent lights 24-7 aren't helping me either.

Current Mood: Headache, fucking lights.
If you're going through hell, keep going. Winston Churchill

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

The Laugh Track.

  I want you in my life. Don't ever fucking confuse that for needing you in my life. Those two things are mutually exclusive to each other. I'm fine with my life and it's not my freind's and my social life that I'm jealous of. We both made our choices. My life has always been an insane carnival. You were merely an extended chapter. But if you think I'm going to sit at home being sad and depressed and shutting down because your not in my life. Your delusional. Then agian we already know this. If my life is going to be a sad comedy then I'll make it a metal massacre. I'm not sitting around waiting for anyone. The least of all you.  I sacrificed enough time on the altar of what might have been. I'm just enjoying the time that we have left. This way if it go out, it's on my own terms. I always told you that my funeral pyre will be a blaze of glory.. I just never told you when.  Now I'm gonna live and have adventures. Remain jealous. You know how ...

51.

Happy birthday.  Hope you are happy and enjoying yourself. I like that we are civil and communicating but i also think you need to take some introspective time and decide the next step. I want you to be happy whether or not I am a part of your life. And i am trying very hard to be. Today, this weekend. I just want to talk to you, hear you laugh..maybe even see you smile. Thats all i want. For you to enjoy your day and hear happy Birthday from me and my son. Thats all you need..to know you are loved. Happy Birthday Baby. You are always loved. No matter what. Unconditional.