Inmates (We're All Crazy)

I have picked a date and i think i'm going to quit on that day, i tried speaking to management about the issues this morning and my response was it's not that bad, No, it's not, if the Inmates are running the fucking Asylum and have carte blanche, but when i am going home stressed, depressed and suicidal and i know other staff are as well, it's fucking bogus... you want to coddle kids, open a fucking daycare... I am sick of it and certian other staff aren't helping either by maing the full time staff's job harder, little things like letting the kids use blue boxes for snow forts on garbage day, do you know what it's like to have to clean up a wet snowy garbage bin outside at 5am because the clients dumped it due to lack of supervision and/or the staff member who was in just not giving a shit? it's little things and it's the fact that no one cares about anything in management, i know I was heard this morning when i was making money about the food budget this morning, which is fucking sad, althought i don't like these kids wasting food, it's sad that food waste is what get's managements attention and not behaviors and lack of everything.

Current Mood: Depressed.
All you need to start an insane asylum is an empty room and the right type of people

Comments

The Laugh Track.

I want you in my life. Don't ever fucking confuse that for needing you in my life. Those two things are mutually exclusive to each other. I'm fine with my life and it's not my freind's and my social life that I'm jealous of. We both made our choices. My life has always been an insane carnival. You were merely an extended chapter. But if you think I'm going to sit at home being sad and depressed and shutting down because your not in my life. Your delusional. Then agian we already know this. If my life is going to be a sad comedy then I'll make it a metal massacre. I'm not sitting around waiting for anyone. The least of all you. I sacrificed enough time on the altar of what might have been. I'm just enjoying the time that we have left. This way if it go out, it's on my own terms. I always told you that my funeral pyre will be a blaze of glory.. I just never told you when. Now I'm gonna live and have adventures. Remain jealous. You know how ...

The Trees.

I am really bothered by someone hurting my tree. I’m not sure the next step but that’s a living thing. I know that there is no healing when our things are still affected negatively by people. I’m not sure what the next step is but I know this is part and parcel of the entire thing and that we can’t heal when people hurt the things we care about. I don’t have much but I do have a legacy to protect and there is a place where my son needs to feel safe, and I don’t think it will ever be that house agian. But once it was home, there are good memories there. There was love. Part of that is the peace that was our tree. I’m sick of people damaging the things I love. The world needs to be better and less selfish. I need peace in mine and her lives. Even if we are separate in our lives. She needs the peace and quiet I have in my life. Even more than I do. And only one of us has it.

Father and Son.

I dont know the next step. I don't claim to. I just know I'm working to rebuild a relationship that has been fractured for many years. That includes both of you. I am here. I will always be here, I have always been here that will never change This weekend was epic and it felt right. I don't know what will happen but i do know that I am at peace with being civil and polite with your mom. It was nice to have a little adventure as a family. It felt right. It what was missing in our lives. Thank you.

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