Intimidation Factor.

I am fucking done being intimidated by anyone,including agents of my ex wife's choosing, you have done your damage and now it's time for me to battle and fight and clear and restore my fucking name... I am not going to be intimidated anymore, i spent the summer being intimidated and depressed, it's time for me to move forward and if i need to be I'll be the fucking intimidating one, this is all about intimidation anyways so it doesn't go back to court and she doesn't have to have a lawyer and spend money, yeah, like that's going to be my desired outcome, let's see you cost me my job, my career possibly and my summer with my boy... you think maybe I'm gonna want to fight you even harder? this old dog has teeth, it's time to bare em. I don't have time to play games and wait and be patient anymore, I spent the whole summer being depressed and came way to close to killing myself for me not to fight very hard and very angry agianst everyone that has conspired to destroy my life, i will have ultimate vindication and i will not let a petty woman who wants me to have nothing to do with my life, including the child we share together destroy everything i have worked very hard over the last 15 years to attain... It's time for battle... it's time to win.

Current Mood: Determined.
The question isn't who is going to let me; it's who is going to stop me.

Only strong personalities can endure history, the weak ones are extinguished by it.

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The Laugh Track.

I want you in my life. Don't ever fucking confuse that for needing you in my life. Those two things are mutually exclusive to each other. I'm fine with my life and it's not my freind's and my social life that I'm jealous of. We both made our choices. My life has always been an insane carnival. You were merely an extended chapter. But if you think I'm going to sit at home being sad and depressed and shutting down because your not in my life. Your delusional. Then agian we already know this. If my life is going to be a sad comedy then I'll make it a metal massacre. I'm not sitting around waiting for anyone. The least of all you. I sacrificed enough time on the altar of what might have been. I'm just enjoying the time that we have left. This way if it go out, it's on my own terms. I always told you that my funeral pyre will be a blaze of glory.. I just never told you when. Now I'm gonna live and have adventures. Remain jealous. You know how ...

The Trees.

I am really bothered by someone hurting my tree. I’m not sure the next step but that’s a living thing. I know that there is no healing when our things are still affected negatively by people. I’m not sure what the next step is but I know this is part and parcel of the entire thing and that we can’t heal when people hurt the things we care about. I don’t have much but I do have a legacy to protect and there is a place where my son needs to feel safe, and I don’t think it will ever be that house agian. But once it was home, there are good memories there. There was love. Part of that is the peace that was our tree. I’m sick of people damaging the things I love. The world needs to be better and less selfish. I need peace in mine and her lives. Even if we are separate in our lives. She needs the peace and quiet I have in my life. Even more than I do. And only one of us has it.

Father and Son.

I dont know the next step. I don't claim to. I just know I'm working to rebuild a relationship that has been fractured for many years. That includes both of you. I am here. I will always be here, I have always been here that will never change This weekend was epic and it felt right. I don't know what will happen but i do know that I am at peace with being civil and polite with your mom. It was nice to have a little adventure as a family. It felt right. It what was missing in our lives. Thank you.

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