You know it's interesting how at the end of the day someone can call me up and give me the information that my ex is refusing a second opinion with a second social worker and that i will have to pursue things legally... it's not a surprise when it's been evident that both the worker and my ex have been manipulating things to weaken whatever ever defense i might propose, because it's not about truly being guilty, it's about appearing to be guilty.. I asked for second opinion on day fucking one of this investigation, obviously scare tactics aren't going to work on me so stall tactics make more sense to use, I'm not gonna be intimidated right? you know there is always the trump card i can play once i clear my name or even before if it get's me to the point where my name will be cleared, it's gonna hurt like hell but some days I'm swimming so deep in depression that maybe it's time to do the predictable thing and move on like i always seem to do, there's a reason why i never put down roots prior to 2000, and there's a reason why every time i have tried since i have always ended up uprooting them.. even if i went with the nuclear option and destroyed my life I would always the fact that she lied to fall back upon if i decided to change my mind, the system and my ex aren't the only ones who can play the smoke and mirrors card... I'm well versed in deception as well, i just can't sit around waiting for my life to end forever, i need to have things going back to normal even if i have to cut out a large part of my heart to accomplish that...
Current Mood: Sad.
Damaged people are dangerous, they know they know they can survive.
When it seems like everything is wrong and will never be right again remember even the darkest nights must give way to day.
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