There comes a time in your life when you start seeing things clearly and relaize that people that aren't their for you are merely an emotional drain on yourself and your resources and if they only come around when something is needed or to take advantage it's time to cut them loose..One of my biggest problems right now is i have far too many fucking people that are poison in my life andf having them as part of my life is no longer a viable option, it's people like these that should have been cut loose and left behind a long time ago... I Know the kind of person i am and why i keep having friendships and relationships with these emotionally damaged people, because i am emotionally damaged myself, But when push comes to shove, I had five great years in Windsor where i reinvented myself and my personality and the person they know isn't him and isn't me... I grew up a lot out there, and it's not surprising that aside from my most staunch supporters at my former employment people I call my closest friends and the people that I know if I ever needed anything are in Windsor, At this point I am wondering why I left.... It's only ever been about my son that I left my home in Windsor, and there are days i wonder if i should just go back there and leave everything here, but i can't do that because i can't scorch the earth of my presence here yet, I have a battle to fight and a battle to win, there's no time for looking back and no TIME FOR REGRETS.. it's just time to get shit done..... I can't think about what could have been, because staying in Windsor would have made me a deadbeat dad, and that's not something i will ever be.. no matter the fucking cost... but i am starting to get to the point of the reasons i was in Windsor and the fact that the best part of my life was when i had no ties to Toronto/Hamilton and Niagara, maybe it's time to go back to that mentality and fuck all of the people that I have evolved away from.Current Mood: Depressed.
I’ve felt your wrath…now you’re gonna feel mine.
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