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Unleash Hell....

Another weekend spent angrily alone and brooding, but at least at this point there is some semblance of normality returning to my life and I can see a fucking light at the end of the tunnel of Hell, things are going to backfire on others.. at least one thing that happened this weekend was the fact that an unwelcome annoyance has departed for better shores, but who knows how long that will last, I like to be loyal to my friends but when someone is constantly fucking around and taking advantage i start to wonder what i am getting out of the relationship...I am more than annoyed by that particular chain of events but you know what it's water under the bridge i will just work it out with him, i just don't want to be a revolving door savior for people, that part of my life is over I've grown cold and I've grown angry...I'm No one's punching bag and I'm no One's wallet....you can't make a commitment and then say of I found something better and then fuck me over, I have too much at stake and going on in my life, I'm sick of people bellyaching and blaming others for their problems and then as soon as they can crawling back into the same stupid relationships,I blame NO one but myself for my life and my mistakes and my decisions, It's the life i lived and the life i chose and I give no quarter to the past, I can't change it nor I would never want to.. But i don't live their anymore... as i said last week it's interesting and it's a reflection, but you know what, if i'm gonna be miserable might as well do it alone.... with No one to drag me down.

Current Mood: Annoyed.
Justice is the tolerable accommodation of the conflicting interests of society, and I don't believe there is any royal road to attain such accommodation concretely.

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